Battle of mind over body

It has been a long week for me...it has found me in the hospital for a couple days. Fear tried to take root in my heart as my body was betraying my spirit in multiple ways and tests being ran seemed to hint at "worst case scenarios". I thank God that those tests came back to confirm that I am gonna be fine. I am left to rest and recouperate. Brings the bible verse about "Be still and know that I am God" to mind. You see, while I am left to "be still" (docs orders) the things in my life I am committed to also have to be still. THAT is the hard part and what weighs heavy on my heart. I feel as though I am letting down those that expect me to be there...from work to home. Being still is something I have no say in right now physically cause my heart wants one thing and my body is in rebellion to that desire. I am mindful that many are in this situation for more than a while. They too are in it against their wills. Their body betrays them. They feel useless and broken. To them, I can only pray that they know God and allow Him to use their situation to glorify Him. He loves the tired and broken, they are His biggest witnesses sometimes. Sometimes it is the soul that is broken...He works in big ways there too. I have been there. I can witness to this personally. I am thankful that I can also witness personally that in this time of having to be still, He has made himself known. He has ministered to me by way of encouragement from others who have shared prayers and expressions of missing my presence. We all wonder if we would be missed , I received confirmation that yes, I am. I thank God for this sweet confirmation that those He has placed in my life feel I am part of that circle to them the way they are to me. I will heal physically, thank God, and spiritually I am blessed during this stillness. It may have been for nothing more than to give me a few sips of fresh waters to a thirsty soul. My cup runneth over. <3